Humility & Grandiosity

may7dHumility was the topic at the AA meeting I attended last night.  I am amazed at how too often my grandiosity can start running the show in my life.  On the one hand, I completely recognize today that every aspect of my existence is the result of living in recovery.  I am fully and completely aware that with the first drink, life as I know it today goes down the drain.  However, if I am not properly acknowledged and compensated, by the standards set in my head, then I feel slighted.  I am too often confronted with the feeling of righteous indignation.

But I am grateful today that I even consider the need for thinking about humility and grandiosity.  During my active addiction, humility was never something I ever gave a thought to – because it was ALL about me and what everyone was doing to me, the poor victim.  I appreciate in recovery that I have the opportunity to sit back, reflect, and assess living life on life’s terms.  When so doing, humility and gratitude for the totality of my existence are the result.

I appreciate too that through time in recovery, I am better able to live life on life’s terms.  My decisions are based more in gratitude and less in grandiosity and self-will run riot.  I am eternally grateful that recovery is truly a process, not an event – progress, not perfection.

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