Today I am heading to Peru for the next month. I went last year for the first time and wrote about the experience. That trip was a huge success and over the past year my colleagues and I have been busy arranging for next steps. Here is the website for the project www.piaraperu.org.
The relevance to recovery is not the specifics of the trip. Instead, I consider this whole adventure as an active part of recovery and being open to possibilities. During my active drinking and drugging, I had a myriad of excuses/reasons why something could not happen. The rationale usually focused on how I was being treated unfairly, was burdened by an oppressive system, and on and on.
In recovery I am often still reluctant to seize the moment and take advantage of opportunities that fit my abilities to be of service. Too easily I can fall back into waiting for the other foot to drop, as it were. In fact, with the Peru project I procrastinated for nearly two years before taking action.
I am not certain where all the self-doubt comes from. I refuse to play the victim of my youth when my story has it that I was not good enough, smart enough, came from the wrong side of the tracks, and so forth. I know I have come a long way from that space. Like everything in recovery, I have consistently found that if I do my part of the work and trust the process, the rewards are great!