Being Open to Possibilities . . .

IMG_1745Today I am heading to Peru for the next month.  I went last year for the first time and wrote about the experience.  That trip was a huge success and over the past year my colleagues and I have been busy arranging for next steps.  Here is the website for the project www.piaraperu.org.

The relevance to recovery is not the specifics of the trip.  Instead, I consider this whole adventure as an active part of recovery and being open to possibilities.  During my active drinking and drugging, I had a myriad of excuses/reasons why something could not happen.  The rationale usually focused on how I was being treated unfairly, was burdened by an oppressive system, and on and on.

In recovery I am often still reluctant to seize the moment and take advantage of opportunities that fit my abilities to be of service.  Too easily I can fall back into waiting for the other foot to drop, as it were.  In fact, with the Peru project I procrastinated for nearly two years before taking action.

I am not certain where all the self-doubt comes from.  I refuse to play the victim of my youth when my story has it that I was not good enough, smart enough, came from the wrong side of the tracks, and so forth.  I know I have come a long way from that space.  Like everything in recovery, I have consistently found that if I do my part of the work and trust the process, the rewards are great!

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