Being True to True Self

imageI have taken Meyers-Briggs type personality tests for some 30-odd years (see Jung test lists at this link for examples).  I consistently come out INFP or INFJ.  In the more distant past, I would review the characteristics of my type, and think “I like this” or “I need to work on that” and so forth.

Less than 10 years ago, I was in a job that just was not working – I was pretty miserable.  I loathed going to work every day.  In a gesture akin to grasping at straws, I took an online Meyers Briggs test again, and once again came out as INFP and reviewed the characteristics of my type.  But this time, I also saw there was a listing of suitable and unsuitable careers for my personality type.  The unsuitable career list contained everything that I was doing on my job at that time.  The suitable list contained job types that I had done in the past with great satisfaction or performed then as a hobby or in an avocational capacity.

I immediately saw the resolution to my dilemma – I was trying to fit a square peg into a round hole. Within six months I applied for and was hired at the position I hold to this day – with great satisfaction.

What I find particularly interesting about this story is that I am certain that when I took the Meyers-Briggs test in the previous 20 years, the favored/disfavored career listing was also available, however, I did not notice that information until about 10 years ago.  The saying that  When the student is ready the teacher will appear seems relevant here.

As well, though seemingly intuitive, why did I take the tests for 20 before I considered accepting my true self?  If the test has any validity, I should not read the results as “I like this” but “I don’t like that” and instead see the type as “This is who I am.”

I also think about how this being true to one’s self is truly a process and not a single event.  I am grateful that being in recovery allows me the opportunity to travel along that road.